A bounty of butterflies as they flutter by in their beauty


 

  Have you ever driven yourself to the brink of sanity because you don't know if you are thinking too much, or feeling too much, or some wicked combination? And you feel like anyone but yourself? Thank goodness for the butterflies whose winged flight kept me grounded. Just when life seemed a bit dark and all too mysterious, the butterfly season came upon us. Then I saw that butterflies are mysterious too, so it's okay for things to be mysterious. Sometimes it feels like I truly do not understand Life much, like I am Supermanwoman and some evil dark alien lord is making me juggle with Kryptonite. 
  There is always that point of debate - if I create my reality then how come sometimes I really don't appreciate it enough? Between comparisons to heroes tight body suits (complete with capes), and with butterflies - well I might just get out of the other side of this strange place that my mind goes.
  Superman is not real, but he can be real amusing. Butterflies are just as magical as Hogwarts, and yet they are real. If it weren't for the butterflies, I could forget to remember the magic that is here for the looking. Sometimes life is like a Costa Rican road. It's so full of ridges and rocks and puddles and horse droppings that I am always looking down. I have to watch where I'm walking, and I'm not looking up in my efforts to prevent falling down.
  Perhaps I'll just say it's from insomnia, and how it's a serious strain on the brain. I think I have it sorted out though, I exercised a lot today to wear myself out. And I made 2 new friends to add some buoyancy to my day. 
  If I could take you on my walk the other day! The sun is out, the sky is blue and makes the water reflect more blue. The tide is out and the waves are more serene. We are on the west coast of Costa Rica, and the weather is cooperating perfectly today. I walk ankle deep in water, and splash as much as possible as I go. It feels good and it's great exercise. The beach is like a 3 mile big letter "C". Like nature is trying to spell out a very large word, and I'm wondering where the other letters are. There is a salty breeze, and truly could it get any better than this? The answer is yes. You could have the wet sand under your feet and the ocean as your view and then you add butterflies. 
  Nature is not stingy with it's variety. In the last week I've seen some as small as my thumb-nail, a delicate lavender color. I've seen some as big as my spread out hand with brown on the outer wing, and purple on the inside. And part of the magic is that I haven't yet seen a butterfly that has the same color on both sides of their wings. It's like watching a split personality as they sit on a leaf and slowly flap their wings. The top sides match each other, but the bottom sides are usually quite different in color and pattern.
  On the beach there were butterflies going out 30-40 feet over the water. I've been here off an on for 11 months, and I haven't seen that before. It was the little piece of Amazing that I was looking for, to bring me back to a reality that was my kind of enchanting. Some people are fascinated by Out of Body Experiences. Whatever, I'm happy for you. What I'm usually looking for is an Out of My Intellect Experience. To get outside of my brain that is just thinking too hard. When I'm in a good mood it's all kinds of fun. When I shift and angle into some bad perspectives: it's all kinds of not fun.  
  I have my own definition of the Butterfly Effect. It's about seeing the beauty and endless possibilities of the world around me. Wikipedia says it's this:
Wikipedia says: "The butterfly effect is the concept that small causes can have large effects. Initially, it was used with weather prediction but later the term became a metaphor used in and out of science. The expression is derived from the metaphorical example of the details of a tornado (exact time of formation, exact path taken) being influenced by minor perturbations such as the flapping of the wings of a distant butterfly several weeks earlier."
  This post is already on the long side, I just have to tell you about one more thing on that beautiful beach day. Of all the butterflies, with all of their colors and patterns, there was one more magical than the rest. Seeing some that are all bright yellow or bright orange or pale green is not uncommon. Of all the flies of butter that I've seen in the past 2 weeks I've only seen one big all white one. Flying over an all green field. Like a unicorn butterfly, so pure looking. I would not have been surprised if it sported a horn. It looked so tranquil. It was a reminder of the joy of some mystical things that helps balance the frustration of other things that mystify me to the point of vexation. 
  These 2 pictures are the same butterfly, different sides of it's wings. They were posing a week ago on the beach. 











  

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