It's my life

  I don’t have much use for anger. I found that if I took the time to de-value it, it was harder to find within me. Also I have learned that since anger is a choice, it’s easier to choose something else. Compassion is one of my favorite alternatives. Humor is more fun too.

  I was talking with a friend of mine today, and we had another one of those good conversations about things that matter. She reminded me of my over-all quest for respect and compassion. Starting with myself. In general, I’m just not very good at being angry. Everyone else is better at it than me. I can tell that some just don’t have control over it, and some see it as a useful power. I remember even as a teenager, being confused by anger. The physical and mental effects of anger didn’t feel right. It was worse than alcohol. I avoided them both for the same reasons. They can compel me do and say things I can count on regretting later.  Then I see people who get angry when they get drunk. That might have been my starting point for being completely unimpressed by either of those things. I think it may also be the beginning of feeling like I was different than most people. I value objection. Not the arguing kind, the kind where I am objective.  

  My dear friend said that her view of the Universe was seeing it all unified and balancing on compassion. I would agree. I think that’s the cure for all that ails mankind. I’ve been reading a book that claims all health issues stem from thought patterns. These health issues are our own private Tutors of Life. It’s a fascinating idea to me. Change my thinking and change my health. I like that. I hate it when I have to take medicines. I hate it when I complain about not feeling good. I hate it when I feel sorry for myself.

  I think the book has some merit. The clearest example that I saw was about fatigue. The book has a simple chart with 3 things: What’s your ailment? Here’s the thought that produced it. Here’s a new way to talk to yourself, to cure yourself. And it makes sense. With Fatigue it says  that means a person is bored or unsatisfied with their Life. And the affirmation to give good energy is: “I am enthusiastic about life and filled with energy.” I can see that. When I get involved with an idea, or a friend, or an event – my energy is through the roof. Almost everything that’s wrong with my body is something my body created. So my body is capable of un-doing it. (I can only speak for myself, I haven’t been diagnosed with anything, or born with any major irregularities) My thinking creates my emotions. My emotions create health or unhealth in my body. Does that mean that angry people can’t be healthy? I’ll have to look at that more closely.

  These are my thoughts for the day. This is the way my world spins. In between putting a purple streak in my Mom’s hair, and jumping in the waves for a break from the heat, and going to a writer’s group this afternoon – it’s a great life. I have become so aware of how I’m thinking, with all this extra time on my hands. With all the lack of demands on my time, energy, and brain power. These 7 months in Costa Rica have been full of beauty and… enlightenment, or clarity. Next week it will be a new world order. Or a “new country order”, so to speak.

  Jumping countries and cultures is very interesting. Today is day 18 of taking Danish language lessons with an app called Duolingo. That’s the 4^th language I’ve worked on in my life. Wow. I don’t know how much progress I’ll make, or if I’ll make it to the conversational level. But I can figure things out in English, French, and Spanish. Maybe I should go to school to become a translator? That would be fun. Depending on what needed to be translated, I suppose.

  7 days from now I will be on a plane with my husband. Flying directly into a new adventure. I really feel like everything in life up to this point is preparing me for the next part of life. I am learning to convert everything into a lesson that I am thankful I can learn. Of course, when I feel very NOT like that, I don’t write it in my blog. Lol.

Going out for lunch at the next beach looks like this: