End with a bang
Tonight I'm going to burn some old journals. On the beach. In a bonfire. It will be epic. Too bad there isn't a bigger moon, but I hear it's a tradition to have a bonfire here. I hope I can make it. To stay up late I may need an energy drink, but I'm trying to ban sugar from my life as much as possible. Well, maybe I'll bring a blanket to the beach, so I can fall asleep and wake up to fireworks. I suppose it's my own fault for getting up at 5:30am again.
But I'm so excited today! I found my people. Tut.com is doing a free 30 Days to Love Your Life challenge. They have their own Facebook page and a lot of people are introducing themselves. It's very cool because it's a form of meeting new people. And I had forgotten that one of my dreams was to make some new international friends. I feel like I've connected with 20 different people today. I still had time to go for a bike ride to watch the sun set, and make some tasty chicken for dinner.
Just when I thought 2016 couldn't get any better. I found a group of people who won't hate me for being ridiculously cheerful. I found a group of people who also want More. I once thought of writing a book about 4 generations of women, and giving it the title of Want More. And the issues with Wanting. And how the same question can be answered many different ways.
This time last year I had no idea how the Universe would be altered to make it happen, for me to be where I am now. Last January Ron was starting more full time classes, 9 year old Dre came to live with us, and I was working crazy weird hours for my job as a House Manager. I dreamed of coming to Costa Rica, as usual, it's been my dream for years. I had no way of knowing that my job chaos would end, the multitude of daily demands would disappear, and I could spend New Year's Eve kissing Ron on a beach in Costa Rica. And then walk home. But I'll tell you this: I was ready. I was ready for amazing things to happen.
This year I'm ready for fireworks. Not just tonight. But a whole year of excitement and big events. Once you see the miracles and get a glimpse of the unlimited options, crazy things can happen. 2016 has been proof of that. I left the extensively demanding job of working with people with disabilities (including disorders of anxiety and aggression) from last January. In April I started my dream job, in a dream program, teaching the same type of people who turned from "clients" in to "students". I worked at a small college teaching people with disabilities how to get and keep a job. It was a 5 minute commute to work. What could make me give all that up? Going on vacation to Costa Rica to see my Mom, and my husband agreeing that we shouldn't leave. So we haven't. I think I will label 2016 as my Shock and Awe year. The real question is: What more do I want from 2017? I don't want to be greedy or anything. I don't want to say that I've outdone myself and I don't have to try any more. I don't want to waste this amazing opportunity of Time, either. I didn't know we were going to be able to semi-retire! Time is now my friend. I've been given a gift. I want to be smart about this.
On the other hand, it's also strange. My entire life I've been Mom, and fighting to keep my wits about me through all the teenage years was a long process. Now they moved out, moved on to their own adult-type things. I've heard about this before. My plate was so full before, I hardly had time to notice. Empty Nest Syndrome or something like that. Since when did I get old enough to be one of those people?? It happened while I wasn't looking. But where WAS I looking? I'm not sure.
For some reason I feel the urge to say: So long, and thanks for all the fish.
(Please, I hope just one person gets that reference...)
But I'm so excited today! I found my people. Tut.com is doing a free 30 Days to Love Your Life challenge. They have their own Facebook page and a lot of people are introducing themselves. It's very cool because it's a form of meeting new people. And I had forgotten that one of my dreams was to make some new international friends. I feel like I've connected with 20 different people today. I still had time to go for a bike ride to watch the sun set, and make some tasty chicken for dinner.
Just when I thought 2016 couldn't get any better. I found a group of people who won't hate me for being ridiculously cheerful. I found a group of people who also want More. I once thought of writing a book about 4 generations of women, and giving it the title of Want More. And the issues with Wanting. And how the same question can be answered many different ways.
This time last year I had no idea how the Universe would be altered to make it happen, for me to be where I am now. Last January Ron was starting more full time classes, 9 year old Dre came to live with us, and I was working crazy weird hours for my job as a House Manager. I dreamed of coming to Costa Rica, as usual, it's been my dream for years. I had no way of knowing that my job chaos would end, the multitude of daily demands would disappear, and I could spend New Year's Eve kissing Ron on a beach in Costa Rica. And then walk home. But I'll tell you this: I was ready. I was ready for amazing things to happen.
This year I'm ready for fireworks. Not just tonight. But a whole year of excitement and big events. Once you see the miracles and get a glimpse of the unlimited options, crazy things can happen. 2016 has been proof of that. I left the extensively demanding job of working with people with disabilities (including disorders of anxiety and aggression) from last January. In April I started my dream job, in a dream program, teaching the same type of people who turned from "clients" in to "students". I worked at a small college teaching people with disabilities how to get and keep a job. It was a 5 minute commute to work. What could make me give all that up? Going on vacation to Costa Rica to see my Mom, and my husband agreeing that we shouldn't leave. So we haven't. I think I will label 2016 as my Shock and Awe year. The real question is: What more do I want from 2017? I don't want to be greedy or anything. I don't want to say that I've outdone myself and I don't have to try any more. I don't want to waste this amazing opportunity of Time, either. I didn't know we were going to be able to semi-retire! Time is now my friend. I've been given a gift. I want to be smart about this.
On the other hand, it's also strange. My entire life I've been Mom, and fighting to keep my wits about me through all the teenage years was a long process. Now they moved out, moved on to their own adult-type things. I've heard about this before. My plate was so full before, I hardly had time to notice. Empty Nest Syndrome or something like that. Since when did I get old enough to be one of those people?? It happened while I wasn't looking. But where WAS I looking? I'm not sure.
For some reason I feel the urge to say: So long, and thanks for all the fish.
(Please, I hope just one person gets that reference...)
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