Moment of Stillness

 
  Let's see how bloggy I can get tonight. I'm so tired right now, and it's only 8:21pm. Let's test the theory that if you are really wiped out, it means that you will have a good night's sleep. If I can remember in the morning that I asked that question. This blog is about moments. So here is the best one from today. Well, I have at least 3, but let's see how far I get before I fall asleep and startle awake because the laptop crashed to the ground.
  Up at 6:30am, and now taking the time to finish out my dream in my head, before getting up. It was fun. It wasn't interesting enough to write a story about, but it was so satisfying to complete the dream, or add dimension to it. On a bad day, I try to take the time to turn the nightmare into something better. Like a flower died, but then I was able to plant a whole garden, or you know what I mean. I broke a leg, but then became a doctor because of it. All that weird stuff that happens in dreams. Because I'm not always Me in a dream. Sometimes I'm young and have long, wavy, dark hair. Sometimes I can fly, sometimes I can breathe under water. Dreams are weird, ya know? Sometimes I try to take a super weird dream, or a stress dream, and try to make sense of it, like changing the ending to a story that someone else started.
  Where was I? Up early, no reason. Yoga at 8am on the beach. I found my first moment. I tried to connect my mind body and soul, but the mind was not having it. I tried to find my inner Peace, but only found Pain. (What am I missing?) However I found a place where I could find that Stillness that was as close as I could get to Peace. It's when I exhale, and then hold my breath. It's very noticeable when the whole hour is about breathing just as much as posing. That was a good moment, one that took me outside of my own head.
  10:30am and we were out during low tide where a huge tide pool emerges. Ron did the whole snorkel thing, we only have one mask so far. I have my fins, but I just wanted to play around. Yesterday we saw so many cool fish in the small tide pools. Me, I just stood there, waist deep in water, watching. The world narrows down to the sun on my back, and the fish in my view. Like having my own awesome aquarium, except I'm in it too. I watched mostly one kind of skinny fish with long stripes of yellow and black, the yellow fades to orange at the tail. They were cool. About 4-5 inches long. The world narrowed down to the space between my calves, where the fish would swim through. I could see about 5-6 of them at a time. I was glad that I was learning how to Be Still in my yoga class. For half an hour or so I just stood there, enjoying the fish. Wishing I could move like a fish, and have nothing but fish thoughts for a while.
  After I get back home, and all showered from the saltness, I sit down on the bed, and I have a moment of stillness.
  Back home, lunch at 1pm. Then a ride on the scooter to get fresh tuna for the sushi we are making tomorrow night. Then we visit with some friends for an hour or two. So here I am, with the best kind of tiredness. Oh, and there was another small of herd of cows down the street as the sun went down. Oh, and we saw 4 huge lizards all in the same spot. Oh, and there is a new baby white horse in the big field near here and he really looks like a unicorn. Well, the kind with no horn, but I'm telling you, it's the closest thing I've seen to one. Oh, and it was SO hot today, and I had another wonderful moment of relief when the sun finally went down, because it cooled things down immediately. And I could stop squinting.
  I think I had officially turned a new shade of brown.
Okay, so these are pictures from yesterday that show the kind of rocks we had to traverse. Today I left the camera behind, and tried to just be in the moment.